Good morning everyone. It’s 5 am and I’ve been up since my bi-nightly trip to the loo at 4. Oyvey.
I wake up to pee at least once per night. This is only a slight uptick from my pre-pregnant life when I woke up to pee almost every night anyway. But now, I have no ability to fall back asleep. My mind is too active, and I suppose I have a lot more to think about nowadays/nights. Every night since we found out I’m pregnant it’s been like this. I wish my excitement would manifest itself at another time of day because I’m quickly growing cranky.
Perhaps someday I will get used to the idea that I’m pregnant. Until then I am awake thinking about who to choose for a provider, whether or not to get a doula, wondering what my insurance will cover, and wondering whether my husband will get the job he applied for last month.
I have thoughts about the nursery and how pedestrians on our busy street will probably wake up the baby, and therefore resigning myself to moving.
I think about venue–the idea of a hospital makes me cringe, but I don’t really like the nurse midwife birth center either because you get whoever is on call.
And intermixed with thoughts of baby and pregnancy, I am positively haunted by thoughts about whether Castle and Beckett will get together next season. I am NOT okay with how they ended this season. Not. Okay.
In other, happier, news, I am 5 weeks along today and I’m getting a second blood test this afternoon too see how my hCG levels are rising. So far, so good. On Tuesday I was up to 357 mIU which is right on track. Hooray!