I’ve decided to throw conventions and good sentence structure to the wind and just update the blog via iPhone as most of the time I spend on the Internet is handheld while nursing.
Baby is huge still. He’s an absolute joy to be around. He’s smiling and giggly most of the time. When he has a bad day I think it’s just so I’m reminded how the parents of consistently cranky children must feel and attempt to have a little empathy. This is all so Braggy brag, I hope I don’t have to eat my words, because seriously– he’s a delight.
I’m a little freaked out about how big he is. My little 2 month old is in 6 month old clothing. It’s not right. He’s not fat, just tall and rock solid sturdy. After nursing in the wee hours I got sad that his newborn stage lasted all of 1 week and i didnt even appreciate it. and then spent the next hour or so looking at pictures in my phone. I miss that baby. But the older, sleeps long stretches, smiley baby is pretty great too. I wish I could experience time all at once to see him as a newborn and a teenager and a 6 year old all at once.
Anyway, my sister’s baby is due any day now so I hope to get some newborn snuggles in very soon. I hope she can stand me imparting wisdom with only 2 months and 3 weeks of parenting under my belt because I often think about her and what I wish I had known in the first few weeks.
I wish I had not taken the easy days for granted. I don’t know how it was like for other parents, but the first week of my baby’s life was easy. Everyone was telling me to enjoy it though things can get a little crazy. I was all like, sure thing. And I privately thought that I must have won the jackpot because my child is an angel. Well he still is, but there are absolutely hard days. So whatever bits of wonderful you get, try to soak those up.
I’d also say that you’re doing it right. Whatever it is that you may be worried about– you’re doing just fine. I mean, there’s not much you can do that you would actually do to mess your kid up. If he only sleeps in a swing–go for it. If he wants a pacifier at 2 days old and you’re worried it will create nipple confusion and he’ll never latch properly again–don’t be. If you aren’t comfortable bringing him to church during flu season, then for heavens sake, don’t.
I think it’s good and helpful to be informed generally on baby care and safety, but at the end of the day, everything you read and are told is just a suggestion. And maybe it will be helpful and relevant to you. Maybe it won’t. Maybe it will work in a couple weeks, but not right now. Trust your gut. No really. You do what you think is best, including seeking out advice when you’re not sure what you think is best.
I remember breastfeeding in the first week or two. Baby was growing and we seemed to be getting a good latch, but the stupid breastfeeding book I was reading said I should be holding the baby differently for the best latch. I really beat myself up trying to get the textbook latch. Seriously. It sounds stupid now, but I was determined to do it “right.” I should have let what was working just work and not worry about it do much. I think I was confused because the book had lots of other helpful info, so I thought clearly, if this book has been right about everything else, then what I am doing that deviates from the book must be wrong.
Anyway, I’m sure you’re all bored by now, but this has been my empowering pep talk of the day.